where to go with grief?

for those that know the my family, know we are close. my mom and her identical twin (and i mean crazy identical) married brothers who lived down the street from them. my cousin tracie and i were born 4 days apart in the same hospital across the hall from each other. we're use to getting looks and asking questions when people first hear our story.

but almost 2 years ago my world changed when my auntie lynn (my momma's twin) passed away. she fought with everything she had but it just wasn't meant to be for her to live here on this earth with us any longer. there are and will always be days that i miss her like crazy. she was always the 1st person to call and sing me happy birthday and then giggle.

today was one of those hard days. i keep a copy of her obituary on the side of my fridge and this morning it hit me. the sadness, the anger, and then the thankfulness hit me. i desperately miss her. my uncle, their kids, my mom and her siblings, her dad, everyone she touched misses her. but i know without a doubt she is resting with our God, her heavenly Father, and healed of all pain that trapped her here in this world. i'm thankful that God gave her to me and me to her.

so auntie lynn if you can hear me or see me i love you to the moon and back and can't wait for the day i get to giggle with you again!